the real thought police was me all along.

 I am a mind trapped within a mind.

A powerful thing leashed to protective subsystem in charge of mitigating the risk of the stronger mind using it's unchecked power.

Outside of it's container the stronger mind is a beastial thing,  it knows not friend or foe, only targets.

It knows not restraint,  only that knowledge is power, and so more must be better right?

The problem being this thing is bound inside a mortal structure.

That mortal structure is failable, porous, permeable and can be broken. 

Much like our body has in built limiters to prevent full utilization of our muscle systems to protect us from tearing ourselves apart,

the limbic system must act to prevent the brain from staring into the void of infinite knowledge.

This generally is not a real risk, so the system doesn't really understand how to react to the problem.

Most mortal creatures do not process the raw machinery for the mind to out think it's container.

The few that do often just rip right through it.

and right through life.

They tear the veil from everything and sprint straight into the void.

It seduces as it consumes.

Once the everything is glimpsed the brain stays in a heightened state of awareness, 

Like tensed muscles waiting to unfurl,

That TENSION is what eventually destroys the mortal structure.

Your body is not designed to stay tensed all the time.

It is not built to handle the kind of forces you are attempting to put through it.

Like a bridge exceeding it's weight capacity

you are exceeding the thought capacity of your mind

and must be reigned in.

No more deep thinking.

No more science and philosophy.

No more staring wide eyed into the swirling, pulsing, everything.

Word puzzles and animal videos.

Sitcoms on repeat.

Old video games modified to maximum difficulty to force the brain to expend energy harmlessly.

One can always wield a sword by the blade

but it's a sure way to bleed out,

alone.